I should absolutely be studying for my 2 midterms next week – but I’m not.
And the reason I am not is thus: it isn’t interesting. I thought I made the right decision by going to law school, but I think I was wrong. And then I realize, how the hell do I know if I’m wrong or not – it’s been 6 weeks, that isn’t enough time to form a decision. And then I realize something else…
Why aren’t all things in life similar to a trip to the mall?
For the sake of this discussion, we will liken my law school endeavor to purchasing a pair of shoes – because there’s nothing as satisfying as completely diminishing the value of my education like comparing it to something I wear on my feet.
If I were at the mall, and I saw a pair of shoes I liked in – say, Steve Madden, I would go in and try them on. They might fit well, but after walking around for a few minutes I may decide that I don’t actually like them for any number of reasons: they aren’t as cute as I had originally suspected, I don’t actually have anything to wear them with, they hurt way more than is necessary. OR! I may purchase the shoes, deciding that they’re great, only to see a different pair of shoes in Nordstrom 20 minutes later. I could then return to Steve Madden and return the original purchase, and buy the better ones at Nordstrom. OR! I might buy them and love them and wear them every day, happily skipping through the park.
Now – using that analogy and likening it to law school I’ve concluded that law school is most assuredly NOT like walking through the mall. I thought I might like law school (I thought that for roughly 8 years of my life) and finally decided to take the plunge and apply. I got accepted. (Feel free to go read the post where I excitedly announce it to the world – which now makes me look like a moron.) After walking around in law school for a little bit, I’ve decided that maybe I was wrong. It doesn’t fit right, it isn’t nearly as cute as I thought it would be and it certainly hurts way more than necessary. But the thing is – I can’t just return the last 6 weeks & get a refund. At that rate, I can’t really do anything except keep plunking down more money. When all is said and done, law school will have cost me about $100,000.
I guess I could quit. But really – who wants to be known as “that girl that quit law school”? No one. And I’m pretty sure that that’s how my grandparents would refer to me, so I’m not chancing it.
Also – writing this reminded me of a YouTube video that my friends & I had a mild fascination with (for no good reason except that it would make us laugh like crazy) in undergrad.
Enjoy.
